where is my reality?


I am terrible with change. I am terrible with stress. My anxiety suffocates me until I feel like I could vomit. I still think about being dead. I went to an exhibition last week and nothing was exciting. Two years later and prozac is still my best friend. When was the last time you cried? 

"Getting back together all those times fucked me up more than loving you did because now it feels like you’ll come back again. I hope you don’t."

I Can’t Get Closure if You’re Still Holding On (#440: April 23, 2014)

Written for: Liv

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Depression does not always mean
Beautiful girls shattering at the wrists
A glorified, heroic battle for your sanity
Or mothers that never got the chance to say good-bye

Sometimes depression means
Not getting out of bed for three days
Because your feet refuse to believe
That they will not shatter upon impact with the floor

Sometimes depression means
That summoning the willpower
To go downstairs and do the laundry
Is the most impressive thing you accomplish that week

Sometimes depression means
Lying on the floor staring at the ceiling for hours
Because you cannot convince your body
That it is capable of movement

Sometimes depression means
Not being able to write for weeks
Because the only words you have to offer the world
Are trapped and drowning and I swear to God I’m trying

Sometimes depression means
That every single bone in your body aches
But you have to keep going through the motions
Because you are not allowed to call in to work depressed

Sometimes depression means
Ignoring every phone call for an entire month
Because yes, they have the right number
But you’re not the person they’re looking for, not anymore


by “Alexandra” Tilton, NH (Teen Ink: November 2013 Issue)

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"we’re just
suicidal kids
telling other
suicidal kids
that suicide
isn’t the

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Ansiktet by Ingmar Bergman (1958)Mikko Kourinki
"Note to self: “I love you” does not mean “I won’t ever leave you."

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"I want all my secrets back."

six word story

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